Why make someone your priority when he/she takes you for granted?

When you're unhappy with someone, it's time to let go.

Good friends don't lie to each other.

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It's so sad when girl meets boy and their friendship gets stronger and girl falls but boy doesn't. Girl tries to ignore this weird feeling, but it just won't go away. And boy has these tendencies to be insensitive but he apologizes for it because he says he doesn't know how to. Isn't it unfair when boy feels sad and all, he calls up girl and girl says the right things, but she doesn't do it on purpose, it's what she says to everyone who looks to confide in her, and when girl does the same thing to boy when she feels sad, boy just says OKAY.

For the first time in girl's life, she felt miserable when she hears that four lettered word. Isn't that word supposed to be something positive, something that would help cheer you up?

Now that girl realizes boy cannot change his insensitive ways, girl decides not to confide in boy anymore. And not to be her primary friend, i.e. someone you would call first when you want to do something, or share your thoughts with. In short, boy will no longer be girl's best friend. Funny, girl never even labeled her friends.

I hope this girl would finally find someone who could give her the two way relationship that should always be present in a real friendship. I hope she gets her happy ending. :)

What Have I Been Up To Lately?

Damn, still no work. hahaha. AND IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS! For the past few weeks, I've gone to 2 interviews, the first one was bull, and the second was good, although I stuttered, so I'm guessing I won't be receiving any second calls from the latter. Though I answered good, I think it matters when you stutter or not?

I finally went back to the doctor about a month ago to follow up on my breast ultrasound result which I got last July 25 (hahaha) and I found out I've got cysts on my left breast and my mom's freaking out, she wants it to be removed immediately. But the doctor said we should just wait and examine it and do a follow up ultrasound next year, since it's a safe cyst but I have to go with my mom, it's sort of scaring me too, I'm only 21 and I've already got that. I haven't lived my life yet, that's unfair if I get breast cancer any time soon. So the doctor asked me to get a number of blood tests and urine and stool exams and go back as soon as I get the results, which I haven't done so far, but I will be getting these tests this Saturday. :)

So while I'm not visiting the doctor or trying to make myself busy with interviews and job hunting, I'm recently obsessed in watching True Blood. If I'm not watching this, I TRY to review for my upcoming Civil Service Exam.

Oh, I also very much wanted to watch (500) Days of Summer but then all my friends were busy with thesis, work, internship so I watched by myself. It was a great movie, although I watched it in Megamall and I wasn't too pleased with the guy sitting beside me, he was giving off and shouting unnecessary comments, I could have punched him knock out to shut the hell up. After the movie, when I was on my way home, I realized it was really lonely what I just did. Then my friend who recently broke up with her boyfriend emailed me that she wouldn't have the guts to watch a movie alone because she's used to sharing drinks and popcorn with him and discuss the movie after, and me too, but I had no choice. Most of my friends have seen it already, and the one I was counting on was so busy with work (I'm not really sure about that, but whatever.) I hope this never happens again, it's like I could cry out of loneliness!

Now I'm trying to keep myself occupied by going to my friend's (Kim's) house later, when the color coding has retired for the day.